Renewed effort and word vomit

Trying once again to restart good habits and forge new ones. I've been meditating every morning followed by some kettlebell work for about three days now. Length of meditation has increased by about a minute or two every day. My mind still feels chatty, ADHD and somewhat out of control but the increased time (with out feeling like I'm working longer) suggests that my focus is getting better even if I don't feel it. Right now I'm just working on focusing on my breath, and checking in on my breath every now and then during the day. I've also played a bit with focusing on individual senses and working on noticing things and then focusing on them and then redirecting the focus. Kettlebell work has been purely instinctual and involves nothing what I want to do right now that's a fair amount of two handed swings, side bends and some extended ROM SLDL's all with a 24kg bell. Meditated for 16 minutes today Did some light shoulder, upper back, tricep, bicep and wrist work with the light bands. Just enough for a small pump and a barely noticable burn. Band and kettlebell work is still sort of intuitive and I think that's fine. Need to titrate in some stretching/calisthenics/yoga to regain some kinesthetic sense and flexiblity. In terms of meditative goals, twenty minutes of breath focus seems good as well as an increase in quality. Eventually I'd like to work on Jack Kornfield's grief meditation as well as some sensory/seperateness focusing but that will come when I've got better focus. Crawl before you walk. Need to focus on changing body comp as well, I weighed 219 yesterday. Tomorrow I'll measure BF% and we'll focus on getting down to 200.